"I want a relationship" I say to myself. Then I think "What am I crazy? Of course i don't want a relationship"
Then I think, it is not so much that I want a relationship, i just want someone to be there for me. I need a good friend (who is male). I want to be able to hang out with him when the girls are getting anoying. I want to have someone to talk to about things, I want someone to play cards/games with me. Damn I miss Adam bieng around, I just don't miss the relationship. I also miss my boys, but hopefully they will be up here next year.
Right now I am feeling rather lost. I am confused and I am not thinking straight. But I need help from you. Will you listen? Will you tell me everything is going to be alright?. Will you hold my hand? Will you hug me when I am crying and kiss away the tears when there isn't even a reason that I should be crying? For I am lost. Dazed and confused. Life is almost to much at the moment. I need some one to catch me because I am falling. Will it be you?
I had a discussion with a friend the other day about the perfect date. She said her perfect date involves a romantic, candlelit dinner. She also wanted to take on walk on the beach at Tahoe. There are so many ideas for the perfect date, so if you have any, go ahead and post them!!
So I decided to update my what I need list.
This is just a few things that I feel that I really need. Sorry if any of it sounds selfish.
1. I need support and understanding from my parents
2. I a to feel like YOU truly care.
3. I need sanity.
4. I need some romance. I want something very romantic to happen, just something fun.
5. I need people to understand that when I am not talking much and acting very mellow, that there is not something wrong. I just need my calm moments in this hectic world.
6. I need money, just because I have n job, so lately I have only been spending money, not making it.
7. I need sleep!!! And for some reason, it just doesn't seem to want to come.
8. I need You to just do something really nice for me.
It's 11:00 pm, do you know where your kids are?
Well, i was rather bored out of my mind, so I thought that I would update. I really don't have much to say. I saw Fantastic Four today with Adam. It was a good movie. I enjoyed it. I just finished watching Myth Busters. Goog old Shark Week on discovery. Anywho, that's all of my "news" for now. Goodbye, and goodnight.
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